Do not think about School Age Remus Lupin

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• Do not think about a scared little boy transforming for the first time, and feeling his dreams slipping away
  
• Do not think about Remus getting his Hogwarts Letter, and refusing to believe it, because “When do good things happen to him?”
• Do not think about hope bubbling up in his chest when Dumbledore personally tells him that there has been no mistake
• Do not think about Remus working as hard as possible, because he still feels like he needs to prove that he is worth keeping around
• Do not think about Remus meeting James Potter and Sirius Black and Peter Pettigrew, and feeling that bubble of hope blossom into a hurricane
• Do not think about Remus pulling his first prank, and feeling like a normal kid for the first time he can remember
• Do not think about that bubble of hope bursting when his friends discover his lycanthropy
• Do not think about how scared Remus was the first time his friends joined him for a full moon because “Oh God, what if I hurt one of them”
• Do not think about how happy Remus was when he got his prefects badge, because “People actually trust him”
• Do not think about Remus’ trust being shattered when Sirius directs Snape to him during a full moon
• Do not think about Remus forgiving his friends, but refusing to forgive himself
• Do not think about Remus watching his friends fall in love and have relationships as he remains alone because “No one deserves to be stuck with me”
• Do not think about how happy Remus Lupin was when he graduated Hogwarts with full honors, and full of hope for the future with his 4 friends at his side

Do not think about School Age Remus Lupin